Lightning and Thunder
Staring at walls filled with empty words
Words that don’t resonate with me
Opinions made of jealousy and envy
Hot and angry, Screaming at me
I almost believe
I almost accept that
That’s all I’ll ever be
That there’s nothing beyond this reality
And that this is who I’m meant to be
I punish myself
Self-hatred turns into self-pity
I start to settle for things I know I shouldn’t
I drift from myself, become the person I otherwise wouldn’t.
I feel suffocated
Living in a box made out of someone else’s opinions
I can’t go on like this
I need to help myself before I lose all sight of everything that’s real
I look at myself in the mirror and see a silhouette,
Just a shell of a person, staring back at me.
At that moment, something just clicks,
It’s almost like I flipped a switch
I now see a girl full of dreams
A girl who wants to spread her wings
I see a girl with so much left to give to this world
A girl capable of magnitudes beyond where her imagination sees
And I realise,
That the only way that girl can escape the mirror
and merge into reality,
is through me.
I see her looking back at me in a sort of plea,
Waiting for me to accept her and love her
And realize that at the end of the day, we’re all the other has
But together, we’re strong enough to create lightning and thunder.
-Raksha Ramesh